March 1st, 1998 7:13 PM

Happy Birthday to me!!! I turned 17 today. My friends are taking me out to eat tonight...besides that today has been pretty uneventful. I spent all day receiving presents from family members, each more shitty than the last... I mean, just look at the stuff I got.
1: Best Of Phil Collins CD from my Aunt and Uncle, who obviously have no idea of my taste in music.
2: A pair of off-brand tennis-shoes from my Grandma, can always count on her to deliver the shittiest gift.
3: A do-it-yourself home care kit, which would maybe be useful if I didnt keep my head buzzed.
4: One of those damn singing fishes from my Cousin Roger...I dont think I need to say anything more about about that one.
5: The icing on the cake, I watched one horror movie with my brother last week ,and all of a sudden my parents assume that I'm a horror nut like he is. They got me this 5 tape collection of some horror series... Hell-something I think it is, its got this really fucked up looking guy on the front with needles in his head... I can already see it collecting dust in my closet.
Well my ride is here, off I go.

March 2nd, 1998 4:48 PM

Had fun last night, you would figure my parents would lift my damn curfew on my birthday, but no dice.
Was telling a friend of mine about the gifts I got and he told me that I should check out the vidoes I got (which I now know are titled HellRaiser), he said they are pretty cool. This coming from the guy who liked Scream....I think I'll pass. It was the norm today, school...then back home, and here I am. Nothing else to really write about...pretty boring life I've got here huh?

March 3rd, 1998 8:37 AM

Okay, this boredom is killing me, we were out of school today (another bombthreat, makes you feel nice and secure) So I basically have a whole evening of nothing to do, my friends have all but abandoned me, nobody is answering. Damn it! Its only about 9 AM now, and the day is already gone to shit. I've been writing in here for about 8 years now, and I am honestly tired of writing in here for once. I'm going to find something to do, has to be something.
9:25 AM
Okay, so I think horror is basically stupid, but I'm gonna check out those movies my parents got...well at least one of them, if I can even make it through that...
5:44 PM
HOLY SHIT! What have I been missing? Those films were incredible...I mean...damn...they were great. I didnt finish them all, but I've only got the 5th one left to see...wow...definately my favorite movie...movies ever....I couldnt stop watching...that box kicked ass, so did those guys...cenobites I think. Man, I've gotta finish watching them!
6:22 PM
My mom can go to Hell!! I'm in the middle of watching Inferno, and she wants the TV...stupid bitch. We argued for a good twenty-minutes, now I'm grounded for 3 weeks. Which is fine with me, gives me more time to learn about Hellraiser.
9:58 PM
Caught the rest of Inferno, it sucked, badly. Pinhead was hardly in it, but the other 4 films...now they are incredible.. especially the 1st...unreal....its strange I'm telling you. I feel better when I watch those films, ya know....like I can relate with the cenobites...I think I would make a good one, but movies and reality are two completely different things.

March 6th, 1998 1:54 PM

Havent wrote in a few days, been devoting must of my time to watching Hellraiser (I've been rotating between 1 and 2 today) I've almost got all the lines memorized...been searching on the net for all I can find about Hellraiser....visited a place called Cenobite.com.....awesome stuff, found a few other sites with sound clips and video and just rare shit. Am going to start looking for any Hellraiser merch I can find....I was talking to Brad about it, and he said that he goes to a comic store that used to sell Hellraiser comics, and even sold boxes...but that was a few years ago...I'm as good as there.
3:23 PM
Success!!! I found three Hellraiser comics in the bins, and got a poster from the fourth film. The guy running the joint said he hasnt sold the boxes in at least two years...okay I admit I got a little angry and threw a little bit of a fit when I heard that. But hey, the guy told me that he would let me go through some of the discontinued shit in the back if I would leave as soon as I was done. It took about a half hour of wading through Rainbow Bright lunch boxes and ThunderCats action figures before I found it.....it was like it was calling out to me....I scooped it up and took it to the register....My first venture into the world of Hellraiser collecting only cost me 12 bucks, a small price to pay for happiness.
10:42 PM
Another war ensued in the living room tonight, this time with my Dad....to hell with a basketball game....anyway, I've been saving up a little money lately, and I'm off to buy a VCR first thing tomorrow. That way they can watch their suckass programs. 3rd Rock....Friends....what the hell is appealing about that? Its not even real...not saying that Hellraiser is...but.....you know what I'm saying....
2:02 AM
Dad just went upstairs, back to the living room for a late night viewing of HellBound!

March 13th, 1998 6:30 PM

Its been awhile hasnt it? Its been a pretty eventful time since I wrote last. I've fixed up this pretty cool outfit. It was a leather coat but I've messed around with it a little bit....added some chains and other things... very Cenobite-like...its cool....anyway, I've been suspended for 2 weeks for violating the dress code. Who cares? More time to deal with Hellraiser...I've collected quite a bit, 3 more boxes, posters from every film...I've downloaded the original scripts and have almost learned them by heart. Emailed Clive Barker and told him what a great job he did on the films and just told him a lot of stuff....figure maybe I'll get a response soon.

March 14th, 1998 11:32 AM

HELL YEAH!!! Clive emailed me back already, its only been a day! He told me he really appreciated my interest and thanked me for the compliments. He seems to think that maybe I shouldnt try to dress like Pinhead, that I should devote for time and effort into school....well I guess nobody is perfect huh?

March 18th, 1998 5:00 PM

Got the house to myself, my parents are on vacation for a week and they took my brother with them!!! Enjoyed a viewing of all 5 films on the big screen today...I swear....its almost like I could walk through the screen.. its me on that screen...I'm one of them...thats why I feel so different...wow, I guess that sounds pretty weird now that I look at it, but....I dont know...back to the TV!

March 19th, 1998 7:12 AM

Call me crazy, but I'm going to take my look to another level....although it may be a little painful....I started a couple of hours ago, I put two pretty good-sized cuts across my stomach...not much bleeding...may have gone pretty deep. Found about 12 or 13 pins laying around in the garage, going to see what I can do with them....
8:10 AM
Okay, so it didnt work as good as I thought. I got about 8 of them to stay in there pretty good, couldnt get them very far in, but I think it looks pretty good...
11:35 AM
Now that was a good touch! I like the look he has in the 4th, with the hooks in his fingers....it actually isnt very hard to replicate that...I'm not saying its not very painful, because it is...but pleasure is pain I believe. Havent talked to my friends in a few days, miss speaking with them, especially Brad....going to invite him over to check this look out, maybe he'll want to copy.
4:35 PM
I emailed Clive again, told him about my new look and just the new me in general...hope he emails me back as quickly as he did last time, he's gonna love it!
4:50 PM
Brad's coming over tomorrow, he's gonna freak when he sees this....experimented with a little piercing today... My lip is kind of swollen, but I got a few pins through it as well...really starting to come along well.

March 20th, 1998 3:01 PM

Well, Clive once again emailed me back within a day.....I dont know what to say....he said and I quote "Never email me again, forget this address...get some help!" He doesnt realize that he has helped me...I am myself now...I'm no longer just empty flesh walking the earth, I'm something, I'm....a Cenobite! I no longer look to God for help, I no longer worship him...I worship Leviathon of course...and I do his bidding...I heard his voice yesterday...for the first time... He tells me what he wants me to do...he told me what to do tonight...Clive, please dont be mad at me....you've gave me so much! Brad is pulling into the driveway...he's gonna love it I swear!
9:01 PM
The bad thing about white carpet?? You cant get blood out of it that easy....I didnt kill Brad...thats not what I was told to do....he's in the basement...he wont be going anywhere...at this exact moment he is experiencing the joy of pain... He is being treated to pleasures beyond his wildest dreams....I sunk 4 hooks into his face, its not quite as elaborate as what I saw on TV, but it works. Fishhooks attached to rope tied to the ceiling....it really worked good. Resembles Frank pretty well, the way his flesh is stretched...almost to its limits..and it will be stretched beyond those soon... Came across my old yearbook....is that really me inside of it??? Maybe I'm crazy...or maybe I was crazy then...and now at 17 years of age...I am sane...yes, I am sane...the rest of those bastards are crazy!
3:09 AM
Brad is now dead, skinned, and disposed of...should I be feeling remorse for this??? I think I may be...I dont know... wonder if Pinhead felt this way at first?? I cant wait to meet him! I am awaiting further orders from Leviathon...

March 21st, 1998 8:02 AM